Being alone is not so easy. Its fun at times, it chilled and rocking too. It also gives a sense of freedom, a lightheartedness and lots of independence to chase your dreams. But what about all the tears, the sleepless nights, the drunken phase under the sky in the balcony, desperate search for a shoulder to lean on to, fear of losing sanity, no one to share little joys in life or someone to get you a medicine or bring you a cup of hot Darjeeling tea when you are not well?
There are plenty of strong women in this world, some are born strong, while others, like me, are forced to assume strength.
But there are times when small and rather innocent acts by others shake the very foundation of such strengths.
They say it’s so much great to love someone and to this I add, its so great to give your love away… simply letting your love slip away from your palm because that’s what he / she wants. Does such stupid but perceived “selfless” act makes one more strong? No, not until you have killed yourself 100 more times and walked on the path of fire… and it is exactly at these time you shed tears, spent sleepless nights, get drunk under the sky in your balcony and desperately look for a company just not to feel left alone in pain and darkness … until you once again pick up the strength, start feeling good, have fun, get chilled and rock the world…
It continues…
3 comments:
ur blogs reflect wat you are- a single, strong, independent woman yearning for some special company ....which i guess you truly deserve.
its strange bt this is the life i olways aspired for... this sense of freedom,trying to be a martyr, giving up d comforts at my dad's place nd carving a niche for myself.
ur blogs help me to see the oder side of this spinster life.
nevertheless, ur blogs still make me look up to you..coz you are living d life i olways wanted to/or still want to. though i know its not all that good.
nd to top it all, i hate being alone. so, i have deep respect for ppl who can actually are comfortable with themselves, are self sufficent nd manage to live alone.
Thanks Priance. my writing talks abt wat i see daily in my life, in the life of my friends, my close and dear ones. I see it from a woman's perspective. there is nothing great or remotely "martyr" abt such incidents of life. I am just lucky I can assume strength from them. Lot more ppl wld hv given up hope. So if you hv noticed all my writings are very very positive in emotion
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