I reached Bangalore on thursday morning, and when i opened my laptop to check my emails, I had a message from reliance telecom in my replicator, it said - "welcome home!" Yes! thats exactly the feeling i got when I stepped down from the bus this cool thursday morning. For the next couple of days I walked around the places I used to frequent while staying here, caught up with some friends, went to the familiar bar lounge, did some road-side shopping at the Brigade Road...
Yesterday, I was supposed to go out for dinner with an old friend of mine, but it got cancelled at the last moment. So, instead, I took a stroll along the 12th Main toward the CMH Road side. And then I got back the same feeling that most often than not I used to get in such similar lonely afternoon when I had no one to meet, see, talk or just walk with... for the last 10 years... in Pune, Chennai, Bangalore, and in Delhi; the feeling of not belonging to anyone or anything, a feeling of not being able to touch those seemingly dormant feelings lying scattered somewhere around your heart. I was alone, lonely and I was sad.
I have now moved to Kolkata, to my home, to my roots. Its hot and humid there, its too many people on road, its too chaotic, and still alone, but what the hell! I am no more lonely; and I am no more sad. Thats my home, sweet, home.
I get a feeling that I needed this fall back cushion before I leap on to my next adventure and a new destination.
Jai Ho!
2 comments:
A long silence, by any standards (April to October). Is it boredom, too busy schedules, or dwindling interest in telling your story? Expecting some more.
Dear SPS,
its not boredom, just that i dnt even know if these are worth sharing... thnx for the comment...
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